Why wait for your ship to come in when you are already on it?
Optimism may sometimes be delusional, but pessimism is always delusional.
I claim my heart's desire, and I choose my direction. I will attain my chosen goal.
Focus on the highest, clearest, and most meaningful teaching you can find, and let all else go.
Only the ego resists egos. The spirit may notice egos, but sees beyond them and does not engage with them.
All of your errors have not built a wall against your success. They have paved your way to it.