People have motives and thoughts of which they are unaware.
I wrote several articles criticizing psychoanalysis, but the analysts weren't listening to my objections. So I finally quit after practicing it for six years.
Stop shoulding on yourself
If I had been a member of the academic establishment, I could have done other experiments.
Even when people act nastily to you, don't condemn them or retaliate.
Many psychoanalysts refused to let me speak at their meetings. They were exceptionally vigorous because I had previously been an analyst and they were very angry at my flying the coop.