When I am most deeply rooted, I feel the wildest desire to uproot myself.
I love the abstract, delicate, profound, vague, voluptuously wordless sensation of living ecstatically.
I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly.
Societies in decline have no use for visionaries.
In my childhood diary I wrote: “I have decided that it is better not to love anyone, because when you love people, then you have to be separated from them, and that hurts too much.
My diary seems to keep me whole.