So I make no effort to hide my pain. I donโt ever put it all on display like thisโbut for today and all the rest of the days of the trial, I must. My every flinch, every flicker of pain, will be magnified a hundred times over, then dissected by the pundits and talking heads. But Iโm told itโs necessary; the world needs to see me vulnerable and wounded. I cannot appear not to care or to lack remorse, but that removes a crucial component of my self- defense mechanism and leaves me bleeding for all the world to see. I suppose thatโs rather the point.
Ann AguirreMost people canโt stomach silence; it provides too much opportunity to think about things they prefer to avoid.
Ann AguirreAs I dive between the legs of a big Gunnar, I see Mair wind up and slam her shockstick hard as she can between the V of another guyโs thighs. Falling, he makes a noise that I canโt say Iโve heard a human utter before, sort of like I imagine a puppy would sound being put through a juicer.
Ann AguirreSometimes the past needed to stay buried; it was the only way you could move on. And sometimes you had to dig it up, because that too was the only way.
Ann Aguirre