He's comming to meet me on Sun. Cant wait!!... Please God let him love me!!... This could be it [followed by five happy faces].... Hes going to publish my pictures Im so glad I didn't sleep with him either!... I hate for men to want sex all the time. I hate sex anyway. (1992, diary entry as she prepares for a meeting with Paul Marciano, head of Guess.)

I just feel a connection with Marilyn Monroe. I just love her. I just completely feel what she went through.

I never thought to ever ask for money. I was so stupid.

I did Playboy. There was an ad in the paper for playmates. Playboy called me and flew me to Los Angeles, and I was on the March cover of 1992.

I was 23, and he was 86. I saw a very sick man. I just wanted to just talk with him. There was no physical attraction at all. He was very much attracted to me.

Living in a small town, I knew everybody and everybody knew me.

I want to be the new Marilyn Monroe and find my own Clark Gable.