I desire to know wherefore I am banished?

As I understand it, laws, commands, rules and edicts are for those who have not the light which makes plain the pathway.

Must not I then entertain the saints because I must keep my conscience.

I desire to know wherefore I am banished?

But after he was pleased to reveal himself to me I did presently, like Abraham, run to Hagar. And after that he did let me see the atheism of my own heart, for which I begged of the Lord that it might not remain in my heart.

I have been guilty of wrong thinking.

Better to be cast out of the Church than to deny Christ.