She wasn't about to go down that road herself, which was a testament to her spiritual awakening and her commitment to sanity. It was a real blessing that she didn't follow me, because oftentimes, people go out together and one comes back and the other doesn't. Or both of them never do.

My days are whatever I want them to be. I don't have to go worry about chasing some chemical to make me feel OK for a minute, and then make me feel worse.

I think dying is the ultimate high...

I had not had any drugs for 5 years but then I relapsed again. I have also smoked nearly everything. Every day it was a battle to recover, which I fought for my son and myself.

Honestly, I'm really just a teddy bear.

I would consider him definitely one of my very best friends and I know he feels the same about me. We have a lot of love and respect.

I'm a crier - let me know if you need some tips. I could cry every day, in a good way.