I was starting to come to grips with the fact that I had created a lot of pain and suffering around me, not just within me.

To be 26 years old and lose your left heart ventricle was probably the most dramatic thing that's ever happened to me in my life...

The fact my relationship with my son is so good makes me forgiving of my father and also appreciative.

Even as the words came out of my mouth, my heart was dying a million deaths.

I stopped hating and started just being. My whole life, I had been the most defensive person you'd meet, unable to tolerate any criticism. But now I started listening and being.

We took off our clothes, and we were basically in a sphere of love and light and warmth, and the rest of the world disappeared. It was better than I ever could have dreamed, it was that thing I had been looking for, that love mixed with the rapture of sex.

I plan to surf more - learn the way of the wave.