I will get a loan and pay the money the court asks for. But I will not lay down my writing and I still say this was an important book to write.

Even in a war, someone has to take care of daily life. Someone has to feed and clothe the children.

I was thinking, there are 5 million people, and I am just one of those 5 million. In the build-up to the war you see children playing in the street, and you think, ah, I'm going to be okay.

If I lose, then I have to accept that my way of writing books is not the way society says it's okay to write.

I would like my book to give people insight to the war before and after, but I don't think anyone could read my book and suddenly make up her mind about the war. I want to write for everybody.

If I leave, reality will devour me. Then they will all really be dead.

The judgment means a lot. As a journalist being accused of invading someone's privacy, there is always a risk that it will stick to your name.