I have my own style that happens to be different from everyone else in Hollywood. My inspiration is me.

I definitely have a rock star lifestyle.

I decorated my house like a medieval gothic castle, European-style. Chandeliers and red velvet curtains. My bedroom is pink and black, my bathroom is totally Hello Kitty, I have a massive pink couch and a big antique gold cross.

My heart is broken... I'm lying here My thoughts are choking On you my dear.

Whatever people say I am, I'm not.

I meditate and try to walk outside daily. I prefer to now spend my time with people that I know truly care about me and are there for me at the end of the day - through the ups and downs - because that is what life is about.

I feel bad because I haven't been able to say anything to the fans to let them know why I've been absent. I'm torn as I'm quite private. I'm not feeling well. I'm having some health issues. So please keep me in your prayers.