To the extent that I had come to understand that despair does not necessarily result in annihilation, that one can go on as usual in spite of it, I had become hardened. Was this what it means to be an adult, to live with ugly ambiguities? I didn't like it, but it made it easier to go on.
Banana YoshimotoSometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.
Banana YoshimotoNo matter what, I want to continue living with the awareness that I will die. Without that, I am not alive.
Banana YoshimotoLiving like that utterly convinced me of the extreme limitations of language. I was just a chlld then,so I have only an intuitive understanding of the degree to which one losses control of words once they are spoken or written. It was then that I first felt a deep curiosity about language, and understood it as a tool that encompasses both a single moment and eternity
Banana YoshimotoHitoshi: I'll never be able to be here again. As the minutes slide by, I move on. The flow of time is something I cannot stop. I haven't a choice. I go. One caravan has stopped, another starts up. There are people I've yet to meet, others I'll never see again. People who are gone before you know it, people who are just passing through. Even as we exchange hellos, they seem to grow transparent. I must keep living with the flowing river before my eyes. I earnestly pray that a trace of my girl-child self will always be with you. For waving good-bye, I thank you.
Banana YoshimotoOf course, itโs true that sometimes the pink at sunrise somehow seems brighter than the pink at sunset, and that when youโre feeling down the the landscape seems darker too - you see things through the filter of your own sensibility. But the things themselves, out there, they donโt change. They existed, and thatโs all there is to it.
Banana Yoshimoto