There's peace in understanding that I have only one life, here and now, and I'm responsible.
I could really try new things. That was satanism, it works really well, I made a pact.
You have to consider the possibility that God does not like you.
When you first get opportunities, suddenly you get surrounded by a lot of people who want to make money off you but also are there to help. But they start telling you so much what you need to be and what you need to do to maintain some idea of career maintenance.
Self improvement is masturbation. Now self destruction.
I spent the '90s trying to hide out, trying to duck the full celebrity cacophony.