We come to Scripture not to learn a subject but to steep ourselves in a person.
They stormed and jeered at one another in long meaningless words of about twenty syllables each.
Human beings judge one another by their external actions. God judges them by their moral choices.
You can begin as if nothing had ever gone wrong. White as snow.
There seems no plan because it is all plan.
Of Course God does not consider you hopeless. If He did, He would not be moving you to seek Him (and He obviously is)... Continue seeking Him with seriousness. Unless He wanted you, you would not be wanting Him.