Sir Rodin convinced my parents to have me committed; they are all in Paris to arrange it.
Camille ClaudelDon't fear anything for your letters, they are burnt one by one and I hope you do the same with mine.
Camille ClaudelIt is in fact agreed that I am the plague, the cholera of the benevolent and generous men who are interested in art and that, when I show myself with my plasters, even the Emperor of the Sahara would flee.
Camille ClaudelI would prefer to have a more appealing job. If I could still change careers, I would prefer it. This unfortunate art is made for long beards and ugly faces rather than for a relatively well-endowed woman.
Camille ClaudelI sleep completely naked to make me believe you are here, but when I wake up it is not the same thing. Most of all, don't deceive me with other women any more.
Camille ClaudelI am in no mood to be deceived any longer by the crafty devil and false character whose greatest pleasure is to take advantage of everyone.
Camille ClaudelLast night, two men tried to force my shutters. I recognized them: they are two of Rodin's Italian models. He told them to kill me. I am in his way; he wants to get rid of me.
Camille ClaudelI took all my wax studies and threw them in the fire that's the way it is when something unpleasant happens to me. I take my hammer and I squash a figure.
Camille ClaudelMy countrymen have commissioned a bust of the Republic. It will be placed on the fountain of my native town.
Camille ClaudelI am scared; I don't know what is going to happen to me. What was the point of working so hard and of being talented, to be rewarded like this? Never a penny, tormented all my life. It is horrible; one cannot imagine it.
Camille ClaudelMadhouses are houses made on purpose to cause suffering . . . I cannot stand any longer the screams of these creatures.
Camille ClaudelI would have preferred to be successful here with a piece that cost me a huge amount of money and effort... rather than sending to Bohemia some ordinary works.
Camille ClaudelSend me one hundred francs on our future deals, otherwise I will disappear in a cataclysm.
Camille ClaudelI don't want to say anything because I know I am unable to protect you from the harm that I see.
Camille ClaudelWhen you left on Saturday, I felt a horrible void, I saw you everywhere, on the beach, in your room, in the garden: impossible for me to get used to the idea that you had left.
Camille ClaudelYou know what black hatred women feel toward me as soon as they see me, until I return inside my shell, they use every possible weapon. As soon as a generous man tries to help me out, a woman is here to hold his arm and prevent him from acting.
Camille ClaudelI am not feeling any better because I cannot stay in bed, having constant cause for walking. They say I leave at night by the window of my tower, hanging from a red umbrella with which I set fire to the forest!
Camille ClaudelI thank you for your kind invitation to introduce me to the president of the Republic. Since I have not been out of my atelier for two months, I have no appropriate costume for this circumstance. Please excuse me.
Camille Claudel