We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found.
Cecelia AhernSomewhere along the way, without me even noticing, I grew up Alex. For once, I couldnโt take advice from anyone around me about what I should or shouldnโt do. I couldnโt go running to mum and dad and I canโt compare my marriage to anybody elseโs, we all follow our own rules.
Cecelia AhernHer eyes, mostly cast downward, occasionally flicker upwards to meet his before falling again. She is apologetic for everything, as always, constantly saying sorry to the world, as though as her very presence offends.
Cecelia AhernShe would make facial expressions as though she were having conversations with people in her head.They seemed to turn into debates more often than not,judging by the activity on her forehead...It was almost the conversations in her head were loud enough to fill her silence.
Cecelia AhernItโs hard for everyone isnโt it? Anyone who says itโs easy is a liar. Thereโs this huge divide between me and Alex right now because I feel like weโre living in such different worlds, I donโt know what to talk about with him anymore. And we used to be able to talk all night. He phones once a week and I listen to what heโs been up to during the week and try to bite my tongue every time I go into another Katie story. Truth is I have nothing other to talk about but her and I know it bores people. I think I used to be interesting once upon a time.
Cecelia Ahern