human relationships simply aren't durable. I think back to the women in my life. they seem non-existent.

I pretend to understand because I don't want anybody to be hurt

It was too much. The comfortable people made comfortable jokes about weather and things but I sat mostly silent saying a word or so when necessary a word or so trying to hide from them the fact that I was a fool and feeling terrible And I was numb, numb again, numb again again and again, numbness and pain swelling in me.

They laughed. Things were funny. They weren't afraid to care. There was no sense to life, to the structure of things.

We are hardly ever as strong as that which we create.

she was consumed by 3 simple things: drink, despair, loneliness; and 2 more: youth and beauty

Many a good man has been put under the bridge by a woman.