We break ourselves up into parts. To lie to ourselves, to hide things from ourselves. You are not you. You are not what you think you are. You are bigger than you think. More complicated than you think.
Charles YuMost people I know live their lives moving in a constant forward direction, the whole time looking backward.
Charles YuYou can just sit in here, impervious and invisible. So invisible you might even forget yourself.
Charles YuHow do you convince someone to change, to stop being afraid of himself? How do you convince yourself not to be so scared all the time?
Charles YuHow many times have I failed before? How many times have I stood here like this, in front of my own image, in front of my own person, trying to convince him not to be scared, to go on, to get out of this rut? How many times before I finally convince myself, how many private, erasable deaths will I need to die, how may self-murders is it going to take, how many times will I have to destroy myself before I learn, before I understand?
Charles Yu