To merely observe your culture without contributing to it seems very close to existing as a ghost.

The body ages. grows. passes through near-lunatic phases of reproductive frenzy, but you are born and die essentially the same person. That... that is proof of your deathless soul.

Because I can't hit bottom, I can't be saved.

No, none of us seem so very real. We're only supporting characters in the lives of each other. Any real truth, any precious fact will always be lost in a mountain of shattered make-believe.

I still love him so much I'll hide any amount of conjugated estrogen in his food. So much I'll do anything to destroy him.

The last story you should write is the most important story. You should start with a story that is just an amusing, entertaining, fun story to write and learn your writing chops with the least important things before you start applying them to the most important things.

Some mythological fat asswipe drives our national economy.