We need to pray and read the Bible every day, and regardless of whatever else happens to you, that tends to keep you close to Him, because you are constantly in touch through His Word.
It is important to have a circle of Christians friends, which I do have.
I can say I have become far more open about what I believe.
But if you have a solid walk with the Lord, then you wont fear that failure.
The nice thing about having relatives' kids around is that they go home.
If I'm going to represent God I have to do it the best I can.