So what? All writers are lunatics!
What are stories for if we don't learn from them?
Everyone is small at night.
Sometimes it's a good thing we don't remember things half as well as books do.
All books are in safe hands with me. They're my children, my inky children, and I look after them well. I keep the sunlight away from their pages, I dust and protect them from hungry hookworms and grubby human fingers.
A reader doesn't really see the characters in a story; he feels them.