When John was with me, it was total commitment. Whatever he did outside our relationship didn't seem very important. We were together such a lot of the time that whatever other affairs he had once we met couldn't have amounted to much because I was with him most of the time. He kept me in Liverpool as late as I dared stay.
Cynthia LennonI was proud, excited and a little frightened. It was all taking off so quicklyโฆthe more successful the boys were, the further away from me John felt. I was getting used to being a mum, but most of the time I felt like a single parentโฆit was hard not to feel frustrated with being stuck at home. I loved Julian, but I knew that if I hadnโt had him I could have seen much more of John and that was hardโฆI felt shut off from the life he was living. After years at his side, I was excluded, just as it was all happening.
Cynthia LennonYoko had 10 years and I had 10 years and I would rather have had the 10 years I had than the ones she did. I had the raw talent and the raw human being, before the sycophants arrived.
Cynthia LennonWe were both sort of bowled over by the fact that we were married. It wasn't a question of 'Have we done the right thing?' It was all perfectly natural that we should be together. But John didn't get a real chance to be first a real husband or later, a real father. Once he got on the Beatles bangwagon he couldn't get off, even if he wanted to.
Cynthia Lennon