She was deeply passionate about the sacred feminine.
It's the age-old battle between mind and heart, which seldom want the same thing.
You can point to the alleged miracles of the Bible, or any other religious text, but they are nothing but old stories fabricated by man and then exaggerated over time.
sometimes to find truth one must move mountains -Kohler
Books make great gifts because they can unveil hidden secrets.
Of course you can't stop. It is physically impossible for the human mind to think of nothing. The soul craves emotion, and it will continue to seek fuel for that emotion-good or bad. Your problem is that you're giving it the wrong fuel.