So this is how a person can come to despise himself-knowing he's doing the wrong thing and not being able to stop.
Daniel KeyesIโm โexceptionalโ- a democratic term used to avoid the damning labels of โgiftedโ and โdeprivedโ (which used to mean โbrightโ and โretardedโ) and as soon as โexceptionalโ begins to mean anything to anyone theyโll change it. The idea seems to be: use an expression as long as it doesnโt mean anything to anybody. โExceptionalโ refers to both ends of the spectrum, so all my life Iโve been exceptional.
Daniel KeyesHow can I make him understand that he did not create me? He makes the same mistake as the others when they look at a feeble-minded person and laugh because they don't understand there are human feelings involved.
Daniel KeyesOnly a short time ago, I learned that people laughed at me. Now I can see that unknowingly I joined them in laughing at myself. That hurts the most.
Daniel KeyesEven in the world of make-believe there have to be rules. The parts have to be consistent and belong together. This kind of picture is a lie. Things are forced to fit because the writer or the director or somebody wanted something in that didn't belong. And it doesn't feel right
Daniel KeyesNo one really starts anything new, Mrs. Nemur. Everyone builds on other men's failures. There is nothing really original in science. What each man contributes to the sum of knowledge is what counts.
Daniel KeyesEven in the world of make-believe there have to be rules. The parts have to be consistent and belong together.
Daniel KeyesIntelligence is one of the greatest human gifts. But all too often a search for knowledge drives out the search for love. This is something else I've discovered for myself very recently. I present it to you as a hypothesis: Intelligence without the ability to give and receive affection leads to mental and moral breakdown, to neurosis, and possibly even psychosis. And I say that the mind absorbed in and involved in itself as a self-centered end, to the exclusion of human relationships, can only lead to violence and pain.
Daniel KeyesThere are a lot of people who will give money or materials, but very few who will give time and affection.
Daniel KeyesStrange about learning; the farther I go the more I see that I never knew even existed. A short while ago I foolishly thought I could learn everything - all the knowledge in the world. Now I hope only to be able to know of its existence, and to understand one grain of it. Is there time?
Daniel KeyesNow I understand that one of the important reasons for going to college and getting an education is to learn that the things you've believed in all your life aren't true, and that nothing is what it appears to be.
Daniel Keyes...Don't feel sorry for me. I'm glad I had a second chance in life like you said to be smart because I learned a lot of things that I never knew were in this world, and I'm grateful I saw it even for a little bit.
Daniel KeyesWho's to say that my light is better than your darkness? Who's to say death is better than your darkness? Who am I to say?
Daniel KeyesWhen he admitted this to me, I found myself almost annoyed. It was as if he'd hidden this part of himself in order to deceive me, pretending-- as do many people I've discovered--to be what he is not. No one I've ever known is what he appears to be on the surface.
Daniel KeyesI am afraid. Not of life, or death, or nothingness, but of wasting it as if I had never been.
Daniel KeyesStrange about learning; the farther I go the more I see that I never knew even existed.
Daniel KeyesHow strange it is that people of honest feelings and sensibilty, who would not take advantage of a man born without arms or legs or eyesโhow such people think nothing of abusing a man with low intelligence.
Daniel KeyesI was her bestist pupil in the Beckman School for retarted adults and I tryed the hardist becus I reely wantd to lern I wantid it more even then pepul who are smarter even then me.
Daniel KeyesI'm not close to him." He looked at me defiantly. "But he's put his whole life into this. He's no Freud or Jung or Pavlov or Watson, but he's doing something important and I respect his dedication - maybe even more because he's just an ordinary man trying to do a great man's work, while the great men are all busy making bombs.
Daniel KeyesHere look at me. I'm Charlie, the son you wrote off the books? Not that I blame you for it, but here I am, all fixed up better than ever. Test me. Ask me questions. I speak twenty languages, living and dead; I'm a mathematical whiz, and I'm writing a piano concerto that will make them remember me long after I'm gone.
Daniel KeyesI can't help but admire the structural linguists who have carved out for themselves a linguistic discipline based on the deterioration of written communication. Another case of men devoting their lives to studying more and more about less and less - filling volumes and libraries with the subtle linguistic analysis of the grunt.
Daniel KeyesDr. Strauss said I had something that was very good. He said I had a good motor-vation. I never ever knew I had that. I felt proud when he said that not every body with an eye-q of 68 had that thing. I don't know what it is or where I got it but he said Algernon had it too. Algernons motor-vation is the cheese they put in his box. But it can't be that because I didn't eat any cheese last week.
Daniel KeyesThe path I choose through the maze makes me what I am. I am not only a thing, but also a way of being--one of many ways--and knowing the paths I have followed and the ones left to take will help me understand what I am becoming.
Daniel KeyesBecause I want to see. I've got to know what's going to happen while I'm still enough in control to be able to do something about it.
Daniel KeyesThe universe was exploding, each particle away from the next, hurtling us into dark and lonely space, eternally tearing us away from each other - child out of the womb, friend away from friend, moving from each other, each through his own pathway towards the goal-box of solitary death.
Daniel KeyesWhat an incredible thing! How much less they had than other human beings. Mentally retarded, deaf, mute - and still eagerly sanding benches.
Daniel KeyesAnd now - Plato's words mock me in the shadows on the ledge behind the flames: '...the men of the cave would say of him that up he went and down he came without his eyes.
Daniel Keyes