So this is how a person can come to despise himself-knowing he's doing the wrong thing and not being able to stop.

Thank God for books and music and things I can think about." --Charlie Gordan

When he admitted this to me, I found myself almost annoyed. It was as if he'd hidden this part of himself in order to deceive me, pretending-- as do many people I've discovered--to be what he is not. No one I've ever known is what he appears to be on the surface.

Even in the world of make-believe there have to be rules. The parts have to be consistent and belong together.

Who's to say that my light is better than your darkness? Who's to say death is better than your darkness? Who am I to say?

The path I choose through the maze makes me what I am. I am not only a thing, but also a way of being--one of many ways--and knowing the paths I have followed and the ones left to take will help me understand what I am becoming.

Punctuation, is? fun!