I already accepted that I relate to nothing. The more I gain, the more lonely it is I know I'm like a ghost.

I wonder whats wrong with me. Sometimes I just keep wanting to go deeper and deeper into the world of self destruction. Like as if I want to see myself fail completely and disappear.

No more running away from something or someone or myself.

I already accepted that I relate to nothing. The more I gain, the more lonely it is I know I'm like a ghost.

I need to learn how to stop destroying myself, stop being hard on myself and be nice to myself. I need to keep telling myself that I need to keep wanting something, something nice, something warm[so] I can make other people happy. I can understand other people's pain because I can love even after all that is left of me is gone because I have that strength.

I usually want to die or do nothing.

I cried, for happiness, for sadness, but most of all, for emptiness.