incessant adj. The doubts. You had to save me from my constant doubts. That deep-seeded feeling that I wasn't good enough for anything I was a fake at my job I wasn't your equal my friends would forget me if I moved away for a month. It wasn't as easy as hearing voices nobody was telling me this. It was just something I knew. Everyone else was playing along but I was sure that one day they would all stop.
David LevithanSuch a strange thing, to hold a six-year-old's hand. Especially a six-year-old you've only just met. A toddler will grab hold of your finger, and someone your own age will clasp on to your whole hand, but with six-year-olds it's something in between, this acknowledgment that they can't be the one to take hold, so you have to do all the holding, folding your hand around theirs, feeling so much bigger and responsible.
David LevithanIt feels like I am wasting time. I mean, that's always the case. My life doesn't add up to anything.
David LevithanIn small letters, someone has written NEVER FORGET on one of the slats. I know it's supposed to be a pledge, but it feels like a curse. Don't we have to forget some of it? Don't we have to forget this feeling? If we don't, how will we live?
David LevithanI don't get this at all. It's like protesting the fact that some people are red-haired.
David LevithanThere are times I think of us all and I wish we were back in second grade. Not really that young. But I wish it felt like second grade. Iโm not saying everyone was friends back then. But we all got along. There were groups, but they didnโt really divide. At the end of the day, your class was your class, and you felt like you were a part of it. You had your friends and you had the other kids, but you didnโt really hate anyone longer than a couple of hours. Everybody got a birthday card. In second grade, we were all in it together. Now weโre all apart.
David Levithan