Welcome to the graveyard of ambition.
To have had fame, even very minor fame, and to have lost it, got older and maybe put on a little weight is a kind of living death.
He wanted to live life in such a way that if a photograph were taken at random, it would be a cool photograph.
This isn't a letter, it's a gift.
Whatever happens tomorrow, we had today; and I'll always remember it
He has found himself more and more reliant on her at exactly the point that she has become less available to him.