The world was large, so large. Bigger than it had been before. Family, too, a bigger word. That felt like a good thing. An essential thing. There was power in numbers.
Deb CalettiA person shows signs of clutching on too fast, of being needy, of not hearing the word "no," of jealousy, of guarding you and your freedom. But the signs can be so small they skitter right past you. Sometimes they dance past, looking satiny, something you should applaud. Someone's jealousy can make you feel good. Special. But it's not even about you. It's about a hand that is already gripping. It's about their need, circling around your throat
Deb CalettiYou โฆ You had always made the future feel safe. As long as you were in it too, beside me, I could be okay.
Deb CalettiThe favorite game of temperamental people is Try to Guess Why Iโm Ticked Off. (Contestant number one, Why do YOU think heโs pissed off? Why, Iโm not sure, Bob, but Iโm going to go with โBecause I Left the Faucet Dripping.โ BEEP. Iโm sorry, thatโs incorrect. The correct answer is: โBecause You Happen to Exist.โ)
Deb CalettiJust that, is one of those uncommon moments, those times when you don't wish for something else, for even one thing to be different; when you have no other needs or worries, where your insides are calm, and everything you were ever restless about, anything that had ever given you angst, is quieted to stillness. No steel ball in your chest, no breathless fear. No blue numbness of nearly passing out, no nagging doubts of the backstage mind. All of that, forgotten. It is just rightness, so rare.
Deb Caletti