People never remeber happiness with the care that they lavish on preserving every detail of their suffering.
Edward St AubynLooking after children can be a subtle way of giving up... They become the whole ones, the well ones, the postponement of happiness, the ones who won't drink too much, give up, get divorced, become mentally ill. The part of oneself that's fighting against decay and depression is transferred to guarding them from decay and depression. In the meantime one decays and gets depressed.
Edward St AubynEverything was usual. That was depression: being stuck, clinging to an out-of-date version of oneself.
Edward St AubynThe first book I fell in love with was 'Little Toot,' the story of an adorable tugboat operating out of New York Harbor.
Edward St Aubyn