Looking after children can be a subtle way of giving up... They become the whole ones, the well ones, the postponement of happiness, the ones who won't drink too much, give up, get divorced, become mentally ill. The part of oneself that's fighting against decay and depression is transferred to guarding them from decay and depression. In the meantime one decays and gets depressed.
Edward St AubynDetachment is what interests me, seeing how people couldn't have been any other way, how they were the product of forces that they had no control over.
Edward St AubynThe first book I fell in love with was 'Little Toot,' the story of an adorable tugboat operating out of New York Harbor.
Edward St AubynI'm really not responsible for what mental operation people have when they're reading my books other than the ones which are created by literary effects.
Edward St AubynIrony is the hardest addiction of all. Forget heroin. Just try giving up irony, the deep-down need to mean two things at once, to be in two places at once, not to be there for the catastrophe of a fixed meaning.
Edward St AubynIt's no use imagining that bringing great writers together inevitably precipitates great conversation.
Edward St AubynWell, the attractive thing about the subject of happiness is that it is notoriously difficult to write.
Edward St AubynThe Booker 2011 is of no more interest to me than the world heavyweight championship, which I'm not going to win either. It's irrelevant.
Edward St AubynI see the author as the person who has written; the writer, the one involved in the process of writing. And they're not necessarily friends. The writer is the one I want to reinforce; the author would just feed on the reviews - so I'm in favour of starving him.
Edward St AubynI'm not trying to uncover the facts of my life but to discover the dramatic truth of the situations I was in.
Edward St AubynEverything was usual. That was depression: being stuck, clinging to an out-of-date version of oneself.
Edward St AubynIt seems people spend the majority of their lives believing they're dying, with the only consolation being that at one point they get to be right.
Edward St AubynPeople never remeber happiness with the care that they lavish on preserving every detail of their suffering.
Edward St AubynThe whole Melrose series is an attempt to tell the truth, and is based on the idea that there is some salutary or liberating power in telling the truth.
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