I think the way I feel when I look at Evan comes from her. In pictures taken the day she married my dad, she was reckless, laughing, spinning around in circles. She looked like her whole world was him. She looked a kind of happy I can't even imagine. I don't want that. I don't want to be like that. I don' want to feel the way she did because I know what happens when you do. You love with your whole heart, with everything, and you wake up one morning and kiss someone good-bye the way you always do except you mean it as good-bye forever.
Elizabeth ScottI love the me I am with him. Iโm the girl who has Dave. Iโm Lauren, Daveโs girlfriend. Iโm someone better than Lauren Smith, who no one noticed till Dave came along. The thing is, that girl isnโt me and I know it. But when Iโm with him, I feel like I could be her. That if something in me was justโI donโt know, shifted a little or something, smoothed downโpeople would think of me the way they think of Dave, and everything would always be perfect. I would be perfect.
Elizabeth ScottThen I heard someone laugh. I wished I didn't know whose laugh it was, but I knew Will's laugh just like I knew he had a small scar right above his left elbow. You couldn't be reluctantly lust-ridden for someone without noticing stuff about them.
Elizabeth ScottHe looks trapped, helpless and furious, and thatโs a feeling I know too well. Know how much it hurts. Know how it holds you down, how every day there are a thousand little ways to see there is nothing you can do to change who or what you are.
Elizabeth Scott