And then there are my friends, and they have their own lives. While they like to talk everything through, to analyze and hypothesize, what I really need, what I'm really looking for, is not something I can articulate. It's nonverbal: I need love. I need the thing that happens when your brain shuts off and your heart turns on. And I know it's around me somewhere, but I just can't feel it.
Elizabeth WurtzelGetting help for substance abuse can be reduced to the deceptively simple focus of โkeeping away from the dope.โ But what does getting help with depression mean? Learning to keep away from your own mind?
Elizabeth WurtzelIn the meantime, I could withdraw to my room, could hide and sleep as if I were dead
Elizabeth WurtzelIf you take someone's thoughts and feelings away, bit by bit, consistantly, they then have nothing left except some gritty, gnawing, shitty little instinct, down there, somewhere, worming around in the gut, but so far down, so hidden, it's impossible to find.
Elizabeth Wurtzel