It's simply human nature to have an occasional, fleeting interest in someone whom you once loved.

but i am content to live in the moment, and allow myself the daily pleasure of obsessing. nothing lasts forever, i tell myself. especially the good stuff. although typically you aren't faced with a hard deadline

The worst thing about this particular end (of my youth) and the beginning (of middle age) is that for the first time in my life, I realize I don't know where I'm going. My wants are simple: a job that I like and a guy whom I love. And on the eve of my thirteth, I must face that I am 0 for 2.

But I have learned that you make your own happiness, that part of going for what you want means losing something else. And when the stakes are high, the losses can be that much greater.

But I have learned that you can't just create your own timetable and will it to come true.

You can love someone you mistrust.

I think the most well-adjusted people live in the present with an eye toward the future - I'm not among those.