The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the worldโs existence. All these half-tones of the soulโs consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.
Fernando PessoaI sometimes think that I enjoy suffering. But the truth is I would prefer something else.
Fernando PessoaThere is no happiness without knowledge. But knowledge of happiness is unhappy; for knowing ourselves happy is knowing ourselves passing through happiness, and having to, immediatly at once, leave it behind. To know is to kill, in happiness as in everything. Not to know, though, is not to exist.
Fernando Pessoa