I think about all my successes and failures and sometimes the failures stick in your head as much as the wins. But you do move on.

I had a fear of losing, a fear of what might happen if I had a bad game. Would I get dropped? I don't remember a lot of stuff in my career.

I remember being in West Ham's youth team and seeing Jody Morris play for Chelsea at 17 and you scoring for Liverpool on your debut when you were 18. I was watching it on Soccer Saturday and I was like, "I can't believe he's scored!" It's professional jealousy. It's best to be honest about it. It gave me real desire. I was thinking "God I want that to be me".

Having grown up watching Barcelona, Elen gets a bit annoyed watching me if I don't do flicks and tricks like Ronaldinho. I have to explain you can't do that all the time in a game!

I never relax on the year before. Every year I want to get more out of myself so I use it as a driving force, rather than a pressure thing.

I think I work harder on the pitch, I cover more ground and my passing is more accurate.

There's a few ugly ones. Carlo is probably the best looking [on chelsea players]