Someone wake me when it's over When the evening silence softens golden Just lay me on bed of dover Oh, I need help with this burden "Hush
Gayle FormanIโve blamed her for all of this, for leaving, for ruining me. And maybe that was the seed of it, but from that one little seed grew this tumor of a flowering plant. And Iโm the one who nurtures it. I water it. I care for it.I nibble from its poison berries. I let it wrap around my neck, choking the air right out of me. Iโve done that. All by myself. All to myself.
Gayle FormanThe whole night had been a mistake. It's not going to let me rewind. Or unmake the mistakes I've made.Or the promises I've mad. Or have her back. Or have me back.
Gayle FormanEven if you find him. Even if he didn't leave you on purpose, he can't possibly live up to the person you've built him into." It's not like the thought hasn't occurred to me. I get that the chances of finding him are small, but the chances of finding him as I remember him are even smaller. But I just keep going back to what my dad always says, about how when you lose something, you have to visualize the last place you had it. And I foundโand then lostโso many things in Paris.
Gayle FormanIt wouldโve been easier to die. Itโs not that I want to be dead now. I donโt. I have a lot in my life that I get satisfaction from, that I love. But some days, especially in the beginning, it was so hard. And I couldnโt help but think that it wouldโve been so much simpler to go with the rest of them. But youโyou asked me to stay. You begged me to stay. You stood over me and you made a promise to me, as sacred as any vow.
Gayle Forman