I know what I did to you was so wrong, but at the time it also felt so necessary to my survival. I don't know if those two things can both be true, but that's how it was.

No one is who they pretend to be

I want you to play me like a cello.

I realize then that it's not enough to know what someone is called. You have to know who they are.

Because for that day, I really did become Lulu. Maybe not from the film or the real Louise Brooks, but my own idea of what Lulu represented. Freedom. Daring. Adventure. Saying yes.

All relationships are tough. Just like with music, sometimes you have harmony and other times you have cacophony.

I am adrenaline slammed into inertia: a fast car stuck in traffic.