And that's when I understand that I have been stained. Whether I'm still in love with him, whether he was ever in love with me, and no matter who he's in love with now, Willem changed my life. He showed me how to get lost, and then I showed myself how to get found.

I know that all the magic kisses in the world probably couldn't have helped him today. But I would do anything to have been able to give him one.

I know. So, I was angry with you. I didn't know why. I was angry with the world. I did know why. I hated all my therapists for being useless. I was this little ball of self-destructive fury, and none of them could do anything but tell me that I was a little ball of self-destructive fury. [...] I knew I was angry. Tell me what to do with that anger, please.

I'm not choosing, but I'm running out of fight.

You have to fall in love to be in love, but falling in love isn't the same as being in love

Closure. I loathe that word.

My stomach lurched, an appetizer before the full portion of heartache I had a feeling was going to be served at some point soon.