I think you're the sort of person who finds money on the ground and waves it in the air and asks if anyone has lost it. I think you cry in movies that aren't even sad because you have a soft heart, though you don't let it show. I think you do things that scare you, and that makes you braver than those adrenaline junkies who bungee-jump off bridges.
Gayle FormanI think everything is happening all the time, but if you don't put yourself in the path of it, you miss it.
Gayle FormanI miss my father. I miss my grandfather. I miss my home. And I miss my mother. But the thing is, for almost three years, I managed not to miss any of them. And then I spent that one day with that one girl. One day ... It was like she gave me her whole self, and somehow as a result, I gave her more of myself than I even realized there was to give. But then she was gone. And only after I'd been filled up by her, by that day, did I understand how empty I really was.
Gayle FormanWhoever said that the past isn't dead had it backward. It's the future that's already dead, already played out.
Gayle FormanHe gives me a little shrug, like, of course, why else? And at this point, I really have no right to be surprised by people's capacity for kindness and generosity, but still, I am. I'm floored every time.
Gayle FormanIt wouldโve been easier to die. Itโs not that I want to be dead now. I donโt. I have a lot in my life that I get satisfaction from, that I love. But some days, especially in the beginning, it was so hard. And I couldnโt help but think that it wouldโve been so much simpler to go with the rest of them. But youโyou asked me to stay. You begged me to stay. You stood over me and you made a promise to me, as sacred as any vow.
Gayle FormanStanding here, in this quiet house where I can hear the birds chirping out back, I think Iโm kind of getting the concept of closure. Itโs no big dramatic before-after. Itโs more like that melancholy feeling you get at the end of a really good vacation. Something special is ending, and youโre sad, but you canโt be that sad because, hey, it was good while it lasted, and thereโll be other vacations, other good times.
Gayle Forman