I knew I could not cope with the future unless I was able to rediscover the past.

Where there is hope, there is no despair.

I ask myself: would I have been any worse off if I had stayed home or lived on a farm, and instead of shock treatments received rest and quiet and the good medication?

I dated dozens of young men, had fun with all, made commitments to none.

There were days that I worked all the time, without a layoff, or a rest, finishing one picture and reporting for another sometimes on the same day.

When my mood was high, I seemed normal, even buoyant. I felt smarter. I had secrets. I could see God in a light bulb

As an actress, I was trained to show emotion I did not feel, or no emotion at all.