I think what I do is positive, in its own way.
I don't wanna get old and stagnant and hang around.
My principal once told me that I was a penny waiting for change. But I suspect that I irritated him probably because I was making more money than he was.
My mind's a machine gun, my body's the bullets and the audience is the target.
I don't have any influences, any heroes, it's just me.
It's not so much wanting to die, but controlling that moment, choosing your own way.