It feels like everything's been decided in advance that I'm following a path somebody else has already mapped out for me. It doesn't matter how much I think things over, how much effort I put into it. In fact, the harder I try, the more I lose my sense of who I am. It's like my identity's an orbit that I've strayed far away from, and that really hurts. But more than that, it scares me. Just thinking about it makes me flinch.
Haruki MurakamiOkay, letโs put it this way. I would like to sleep with you. But itโs alright if I donโt sleep with you. What Iโm saying is Iโd like to be as fair as possible. I donโt want to force anything on anybody, any more than Iโd want anything forced on me. Itโs enough that I feel your presence or see your commas swirling around me.
Haruki MurakamiThey put up with such strenuous training, and where did their thoughts, their hopes and dreams, disappear to? When people pass away, do their thoughts just vanish?
Haruki MurakamiThere's a special feeling you get on a veranda that you just can't get anywhere else.
Haruki MurakamiI am nothing. Iโm like someone whoโs been thrown into the ocean at night, floating all alone. I reach out, but no one is there. I call out, but no one answers. I have no connection to anything.
Haruki MurakamiI've been lonely for so long. And I've been hurt so deeply. If only I could have met you again a long time ago, then I wouldn't have had to take all these detours to get here.' Tengo shook his head. 'I don't think so. This way is just fine. This is exactly the right time. For both of us. [...] We needed that much time.... to understand how lonely we really were.
Haruki Murakami