Killing time is not an easy job.
What was lost was lost. There was no retrieving it, however you schemed, no returning to how things were, no going back.
As we go through life we gradually discover who we are, but the more we discover, the more we lose ourselves.
Nature is actually unnatural
People soon get tired of things that aren't boring, but not of what is boring.
I contented myself with whiskey, for medicinal purposes. It helped numb my various aches and pains. Not that the alcohol actually reduced the pain; it just gave the pain a life of its own, apart from mine.