One more thing: donโt feel bad for not telling me that you loved me. You didnโt need to say it. I knew all along that you did.
J.A. RedmerskiI don't know myself. I don't know what I want or how I feel or how I should feeland I don't think I ever really have.
J.A. RedmerskiWell, Iโm glad you didnโt drown.โ His eyes warm up with his face. I smile back at him. โYeah, that wouldโve sucked.โ โDefinitely.
J.A. Redmerskilet yourself cry, OK? One of the worst feelings in the world is being unable to cry and eventually itโฆstarts to make things darker.
J.A. RedmerskiVictor Faust did much more than help me escape a life of abuse and servitude. He changed me. He changed the landscape of my dreams, the dreams I had every day about living ordinarily and free and on my own. He changed the colors on the palette from primary to rainbowโas dark as the colors of that rainbow may be.
J.A. RedmerskiI have never lived the way I lived during my short time with you. For the first time in my life, Iโve felt whole, alive, free. You were the missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one of them. Iโve known you for a short time, but I feel like Iโve known you forever
J.A. Redmerski