Yesterday I thought about why I felt the need to get up at exactly the same time as the day before and do everything I did the day before. Why? What compels any of us to do the things we do when deep down a part of us just wants to break free from it all?
J.A. RedmerskiI tried to will them with my super mental powers so heโd put them around my waist, but apparently I had no super mental powers.
J.A. RedmerskiTime is cruel like life. It slows down so that you can truly experience the worst moments of it. Only if you make it through them do you get to say โIt all happened so fast.
J.A. RedmerskiThis goes against everything that I am, Sarai," he says and then kisses me. "No, it doesn't," I whisper and kiss him back. "It's you becoming more of who you really are.
J.A. RedmerskiThe moment you tell someone else is the moment you become a whiner and the worldโs smallest violin starts to play. The truth is, we all have problems; we all go through hardships and pain, and my pain is paradise compared to a lot of peopleโs and I really have no right to whine at all.
J.A. RedmerskiBut as I stood there dressed in a cute black pants suit and white button-up shirt and heels, I felt completely out of place. Not necessarily because of the clothes, butโฆI just donโt belong there. I canโt put my finger on it, but that Monday and the rest of that week when I woke up, got dressed and walked into that store, something was itching the back part of my consciousness. I couldnโt hear the actual words, but it felt like: This is your life, Camryn Bennett. This is your life.
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