Andrew..,' I shake my head, tears rolling my cheeks, '... it was always you," I whisper harshly. 'Even with Ian, I felt something was missing. I told you, that night in the field; I told you that...,' My voice trails. I smile and say, 'you are my partner in crime. I've known that for a long time.

I want to do everything with you

let yourself cry, OK? One of the worst feelings in the world is being unable to cry and eventually it…starts to make things darker.

Oh, this is going to be fun; he actually thinks he's teaching me something.

I believe that no matter what happens, or where we go, or if there's an afterlife, that we'll always be connected. Not even death can make me forget you, or forget that I love you.

I’m starting to get used to this feeling of not caring about anything.

There is a stark difference between fear and uncertainty, Sarai. You fear nothing but are uncertain of everything.