The more ups and downs, the more joy I feel. The greater the fear, the greater the happiness I feel.

Offer them what they secretly want and they of course immediately become panic-stricken.

We lay on our backs looking at the ceiling and wondering what God had wrought when he made life so sad and disinclined.

The only alternative to sleeping out, hopping freights, and doing what I wanted, I saw in a vision would be to just sit with a hundred other patients in front of a nice television set in a madhouse, where we could be "supervised."

And the story of love is a long sad tale ending in graves.

One fast move or I'm gone,' I realize, gone the way of the last three years of drunken hopelessness which is a physical and spiritual and metaphysical hopelessness you can't learn in school no matter how many books on existentialism or pessimisn you read, or how many jugs of vision-producing Ayahuasca drink, or Mescaline take, or Peyote goop up with -

They spent all week saving pennies and went out Saturdays to spend fifty bucks in three hours.