For a while I was suicidal and I tried to kill myself. I think I should have died about four times.

It's been real weird. It wasn't how I expected my life to turn out. Especially, mainly pertaining to the show. It never crossed my mind that one day I'm gonna be big and famous and have my own TV show, you know?

Well, all I can say is, it's a day-by-day program, and so I'm very worried about relapsing, but I don't know. I don't want to use. I don't want to go back to that place because nothing good came of it. It was super dark; it's not nice.

I'd read things, like people criticizing me. But no one likes to read stuff about that, and probably the main thing that was getting to me was me mum's illness.

I'm real clear, you know? There's no fogginess.

I had my group of friends, you know, like my real group of friends, and then I had, like, party friends.

Where I felt comfortable was being the one that everyone liked to party with. And it was kind of the way I could fit in.