The feeling of arms around me, of love in my heart, it was more powerful than any of the negativity I knew was existing in the world for me. That feeling of love killed it all.

Fear, he said, ran all of our lives. Fear, he said, after religion, was the most destructive force in the world.

There are places from which you cannot return. There is damage that can be irreparable.

Sometimes skulls are thick. Sometimes hearts are vacant. Sometimes words don't work.

I've been alone my whole life, I can't do it anymore.

I often think of death. True. Suicide is a reasonable option. True. My sins are unpardonable. I stare at the question. My sins are unpardonable. I stare at the question. My sins are unpardonable. I leave it blank.

I love the process of being alone in a room.