I too was a little embarrassed by my recent topless 'scandal' and the subsequent parodies.

Now all of a sudden I'm so less interested in pretending to be a lot of other people, and much more interested in being me.

Fifty is a big corner to turn. It used to mean being put out to pasture, but it's the opposite with me. I feel more vibrant; I'm more active than I've ever been. The F-word really is freedom. It's the freedom to have dropped the rock-the rock of addiction, of family, of comparisons with other people. It's being fit and focused and kind of furious.

And I was ashamed of myself for feeling like I had to do that in order to look a certain way. I felt misshapen, just not natural anymore. And I think it was a big stimulator of my drug use.

My mother was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. There are moments when I remember her beauty, unadorned, unposed, not in some artificial place like a set or a photo call but rather captured outdoors in nature, where she took my breath away. When those moments surface, I miss her the most.

I love performing and pretending - it's very easy for me.

The dog actors and the relationship they have with their trainers is one of the most beautiful things I've ever watched happen in front of me.