It's up to the reader to decipher the code, or the words, based on everything they know about life and emotions.

Because what if I got to know you and you turned out to be just like they said? What if you weren’t the person I hoped you were? That, more than anything, would have hurt the most.

Could be my soul mate / two kindred spirits / Maybe we're not / I guess we'll never / know

I wanted to tell you everything. And that hurt because some things were too scary. Some things even I didn’t understand. How could I tell someone—someone I was really talking to for the first time—everything I was thinking? I couldn’t. It was too soon.

You can't go back to how things were. How you thought they were. All you really have is...now.

They were like two magnets who couldn't decide whether to attract or repel.

Will I ever get control of my life? Will I always be shoved back and pushed around by those I trust?